Throwback to kilig. :p

Posting word for word what I wrote on October 10, 2008

BTW, this happened on October 5, 2008. :)

It was the 5th night of October. Syempre may birthday na naman.. Sun escapades. Hindi ko talaga alam kung si Jennifer lang ba and gusto kong kausapin or deep inside me gusto ko malaga makausap si T. I'm guessing it's the second one and first... haha :)

Una si Jennifer lang ang kausap ko, originally, siya lang talaga ang kakausapin ko, nagchichikahan na nga kami eh, pero one way or another, siya na naman ang nakausap ko... I don't know why but the phone always ended up in his hands. Well, buti nailing nun una nangingibabaw yung galit ko, so ginisa ko siya. I didn't let him go off the hook so easily. Sinabi ko na may kasalanan pa siya sakin. And then he went on with the painosente look/strategy. So I knew na he remembered what I said. He simply didn't like to go out to talk. Sabi niya, "aka megdebut naka, yaku ali kupa, tali mu nako." It was then that I knew, that he knew what I was gonna say.. haha :) natawa ako na nagalit. Sabi ko, "Hindi naman yun noh! Iba naman yung sasabihin ko" then he laughed, "eh ano ba yon?" he asked.
"Hindi pwede sa phone. Dapat sa personal."
"Why? Bakit?"
"Eh basta, gusto ko sa personal"

It was then na tinext ko si B, na kausap ko si T. She told me na tanungin ko na lahat ng gusto ko itanong, na baka daw hindi na ako magka-chance ulit, na baka daw umamin na siya. Her encouragement gave me courage. So ayun tinanong ko na sya. Before I asked him, parang my heart stopped beating. Then I asked him, "nanu bang feelings mu para kaku?" At any timing inulit and tanong ko sa harap ng mga tao. "feelings ku keka?" ayun, narinig nilang lahat. Kinantyawan tuloy kami. Tapos sabi niya "meron." After the word "meron" I didn't concentrate on the other words, but I heard the key words perfectly, gold-digger, marine, pride. Sabi niya kaya daw hindi siya lumalapit sa akin dahlia nahihiya siya. His main reasons were "pride" and "marine ya." I didn't know what to say, because he had a point.

Tama siya. He said the words that I've been thinking all along. I was right. All of my assumptions were confirmed and I couldn't say anything. Pathetic but I changed the topic to a lighter one, which he gladly went along with. I asked him, "kelan pa?" he told me "after ng debut" That was the second thing he said that night that brought me to Cloud 9. haha at tinanong nya ako "eh ikaw kelan pa?" sabi ko "matagal na, before pa ng debut" haha sabi niya niloloko ko lang daw siya. Sabi ko nga, parang nakakasiguro ka na meron ah! Sabi niya, syempre naman! haha Tapos tinanong ko pa siya "eh before nung debut? wala?" "yung before ng debut, puppy love lang yun"

That's it. hahaha

What I Want

I want those forehead kisses.
I want you to hold my hand just because.
I want you to put your arms around me to show the world that I'm yours and you're mine.
I want us to walk wherever together, not caring about the people around us.
I want us to watch movies together, those cheesy chick flicks, Tagalog movies, horror movies.
I want us to enjoy eating meals together.
I want us to go on a vacation together.
I want that random cheesy Facebook status you'll post telling me that you love me.
I want to be texted good morning or good night.
I want us to watch fireworks together.
I want you to be loyal to me, to make me feel secure even if we don't always see each other.
I want to do random sweet things for you.
I want you to be serious about me, I'm too old to play games.
I want those random dates where we don't do anything, just talk about things.
I want to receive red roses from you, just because.
I just want to be loved.
Is that too much to ask for? 😊