Out With the Old, In With the New

The first 3 months of 2016 for me has been "okay." 

I have a previous blog post about being adventurous this year and I've certainly done some of it already but, this month (March) makes it more special. 

I'm turning 29 on the 24th and I am excited and scared at the same time. Excited because I know there a lot of things in store for me this year, scared because i do not know what these things are. 

I told myself that i would enjoy my last year in my 20s and I've been doing that for the past 3 months, no regrets. :) I quit my job last January and been doing things that I haven't done before. It's been fun going out of town, sleeping the whole day on some days, meeting up with friends and going to the gym. But I know that there is much more to life than that. I need to do something more, and earn money and enjoy the process. :) 

Also, I need to re-organize my life and determine my goals while enjoying. 

First, I would organise my room, clean out stuff and clothes from my closet which I don't need anymore. Honestly I just keep some of my stuff for sentimental reasons. 

Second, I will be more aggressive and not just write my thoughts and feelings in my blog. Be proactive!

I've decided: 2016 will be a year of transition for me, a better me, a new me! 

I know it's not easy but I gotta do this for myself! Aja!

These Dreams

I dreamt of you again. 

The feeling was so strong. It felt so good that I wanted to hold onto it for as long as I could. But it was all that it could ever be. A dream. 

I'm sure that I'm already over you. I'm not pining for you now. But every once in a while, you still appear in my dreams, each one more intense than the previous one. Every time my birthday is coming near, I dream of you. And whenever I wake up from that, I always wish that it wasn't a dream. But I know dreams are all they could ever be. I guess it's not you but it's the way you make me feel in those dreams that I really want: special, loved, cared for.

Thank you for appearing in my dreams. You always appear at the right time, when I feel down and feeling that it's hard for people to love me, you remind me that it's not, that there's nothing wrong with me. 

You will always have a special place in my heart because you taught and made me realize a lot of things. Thank you again! 😊😊😊